Post by Rose on Jun 30, 2008 1:28:43 GMT -5
Greetings all,
I received an email from a reader regarding her difficult chart. I am posting her query here and welcome your input if you feel inspired to help this person.
december 18, 1968
in fresno, california
11:45 pm
dear rose,
i have been following you for sometime. i have been wanting to write to you about my chart.
i have found out what i know about my chart by people who specialize in pluto. astrologers gasp when they see my chart. the only advice i have ever gotten about my situation is "discipline" and by the time you are 40 "you will be able to turn flesh into stone". i was also told i have a one in a million chart.
i have held firm and have road out this night mare and that is the only word for it. i am about to turn 40 and while i think i have managed through the worst i think the world is taking a turn for the worst and to be honest i have no hope for the reward part.
i was born with pluto on my ascendant, exact. it has squared, opposed all the important and serious planets in my chart. i survived 6 major head injuries, left home at 15 and took care of myself without any help. there was never any help offered, ever and when it has, it has had abusive attachments to it.
then pluto transit in 95, well let's just say when things could not get worse they did. the last 14 years, i had a brain tumor i fought for 8 years alternatively, my whole family died and not one of them was prepared or had money, a boyfriend tried to murder me and over the last 2 years i have lost everything and have ended up pretty much homeless.
i have worked so hard my whole life, i have never given up ever and i just do not see what all of this has been for? i have in the last month put out 35 resumes. i cannot get work and i am not willing to compromise myself for work. this next week i have to turn my phone off and close the last few accounts i have, then hopefully somewhere down the road pay the bills.
i am attaching a resume of me so that you can get the big picture of how much schooling i have had, how hard i have worked. the resume shows only half of the education and skills, also i have projects i have been working on for 10 years in some cases. know one will listen to me and lately i feel like i am not even here or here in a way that people see and hear you. like i am on the out skirts? hard to explain.
another issue that has scared the tar out of me is transporting in my car to other states. i am in one state, i get dizzy and the next thing i know i am somewhere else.
i have been on the road for the last 2 years. i felt i would try and just follow the voice and it has taken me all over the place, living in my car, door opens i go there, door closed i am show where to go next. do you think that the universe is trying to give people opportunity to do the right thing? i come in and show them the way and they cannot get out of their own resistance to see that i am the messenger that they have asked for and they abuse me and let me limp off. i just do not get it? i think i am to far ahead of the times and the planet is going backwards. the pluto on my ascendant brings peoples darkness right to the surface and no matter how nice i am they just feel that pluto, darkness polarity. it has served me well in alternative medicine work, but not in friendships, relationships. i have been single now for 10 years. it has been hard to go it completely alone, but i have done it.
anyway i know you have to make money and i have none to offer. i can offer something in the future if you need alternative medicine. i work on some many levels and most people that i have worked with have survived their illnesses and in some cases have had a instant turn around. with the pluto opposing my chiron i can bring up the darkness, connect into the places where sickness lives and bring it up and heal it.
i know i am the master, i came here that way, i have done nothing but become it and i know that pluto in my natal and transiting since 95 can be extremely painful. i know i am here to change the world, i have known my whole life, but i also have this sense over the last couple of years that my work might not be needed now as we did not make the shift offered in 95 and this is why everything is going the way it is for me.
i am trying to figure out if it is time for me to leave this experience? if i can get my work out and make a difference? i have given my entire life to spirit and have been what feels like force to at every turn. like a dog on a chain, tied to his house, abandon and every time he gets a new idea he runs for it and is jerked back and beaten for it. all he wants to do is love unconditionally and always does not matter what.
the whole dog thing came up a couple of days ago and it is totally how i feel my whole life has been.
i will send my birth data in the next email with my resume.
my chart might interest you, it has many natal aspects and the aspects over the last 12 years or so. many astrologers have reported that they are shocked i am still physically alive after seeing my chart. i do not think they have really looked at most of it, scares them and is out of their knowledge base area. if you have classes or students and you want to put my chart up for debate, you may, i would love to hear about it.
cheers to pluto,
bd
I have several projects on the back burner:
1) National wellness centers, I have a business model and plan I have been working on and perfecting 10 years.
2) Children's books, I am working on books, a series of them. Based in my own experiences such as resurrecting bugs from the dead about age 5, being taught by trees and mastering conscious symbology. They are stories of a little girl having journeys between both worlds at the same time.
3) wilderness/medical/survival gear, I have numerous ideas/designs for new products for the market in wilderness medicine, military, based on the lack of products like these and the necessity I have for them. I feel in love with wilderness medicine and survival.
New business projects that have been developing over the last two years.
1) National food coops with one head office and only local organic produce is sold. This would help America with the food crisis.
2) Business consulting/pr/marketing and assistance in self publishing company that only caters to the alternative markets. We have many amazing things coming out of the alternative collective and they are not the type of people who know what to do next and thus their thoughts, ideas and products never make into the public arena.
these are the other projects. i am just trying to give you a sense of who i am when it comes to my birth data and events that have happened since born.
i was born december 18, 1968
in fresno, california
11:45 pm
and yes, i almost died and was told i would have severe brain damage because of the force applied to get me out after 18 hours. typical pluto stuff! i also had a stigmata 3 times during age 4 to 5. after is when i stared healing animals and resurrecting bugs from the dead, no shit! i have never met another person like myself and would love too.
I received an email from a reader regarding her difficult chart. I am posting her query here and welcome your input if you feel inspired to help this person.
december 18, 1968
in fresno, california
11:45 pm
dear rose,
i have been following you for sometime. i have been wanting to write to you about my chart.
i have found out what i know about my chart by people who specialize in pluto. astrologers gasp when they see my chart. the only advice i have ever gotten about my situation is "discipline" and by the time you are 40 "you will be able to turn flesh into stone". i was also told i have a one in a million chart.
i have held firm and have road out this night mare and that is the only word for it. i am about to turn 40 and while i think i have managed through the worst i think the world is taking a turn for the worst and to be honest i have no hope for the reward part.
i was born with pluto on my ascendant, exact. it has squared, opposed all the important and serious planets in my chart. i survived 6 major head injuries, left home at 15 and took care of myself without any help. there was never any help offered, ever and when it has, it has had abusive attachments to it.
then pluto transit in 95, well let's just say when things could not get worse they did. the last 14 years, i had a brain tumor i fought for 8 years alternatively, my whole family died and not one of them was prepared or had money, a boyfriend tried to murder me and over the last 2 years i have lost everything and have ended up pretty much homeless.
i have worked so hard my whole life, i have never given up ever and i just do not see what all of this has been for? i have in the last month put out 35 resumes. i cannot get work and i am not willing to compromise myself for work. this next week i have to turn my phone off and close the last few accounts i have, then hopefully somewhere down the road pay the bills.
i am attaching a resume of me so that you can get the big picture of how much schooling i have had, how hard i have worked. the resume shows only half of the education and skills, also i have projects i have been working on for 10 years in some cases. know one will listen to me and lately i feel like i am not even here or here in a way that people see and hear you. like i am on the out skirts? hard to explain.
another issue that has scared the tar out of me is transporting in my car to other states. i am in one state, i get dizzy and the next thing i know i am somewhere else.
i have been on the road for the last 2 years. i felt i would try and just follow the voice and it has taken me all over the place, living in my car, door opens i go there, door closed i am show where to go next. do you think that the universe is trying to give people opportunity to do the right thing? i come in and show them the way and they cannot get out of their own resistance to see that i am the messenger that they have asked for and they abuse me and let me limp off. i just do not get it? i think i am to far ahead of the times and the planet is going backwards. the pluto on my ascendant brings peoples darkness right to the surface and no matter how nice i am they just feel that pluto, darkness polarity. it has served me well in alternative medicine work, but not in friendships, relationships. i have been single now for 10 years. it has been hard to go it completely alone, but i have done it.
anyway i know you have to make money and i have none to offer. i can offer something in the future if you need alternative medicine. i work on some many levels and most people that i have worked with have survived their illnesses and in some cases have had a instant turn around. with the pluto opposing my chiron i can bring up the darkness, connect into the places where sickness lives and bring it up and heal it.
i know i am the master, i came here that way, i have done nothing but become it and i know that pluto in my natal and transiting since 95 can be extremely painful. i know i am here to change the world, i have known my whole life, but i also have this sense over the last couple of years that my work might not be needed now as we did not make the shift offered in 95 and this is why everything is going the way it is for me.
i am trying to figure out if it is time for me to leave this experience? if i can get my work out and make a difference? i have given my entire life to spirit and have been what feels like force to at every turn. like a dog on a chain, tied to his house, abandon and every time he gets a new idea he runs for it and is jerked back and beaten for it. all he wants to do is love unconditionally and always does not matter what.
the whole dog thing came up a couple of days ago and it is totally how i feel my whole life has been.
i will send my birth data in the next email with my resume.
my chart might interest you, it has many natal aspects and the aspects over the last 12 years or so. many astrologers have reported that they are shocked i am still physically alive after seeing my chart. i do not think they have really looked at most of it, scares them and is out of their knowledge base area. if you have classes or students and you want to put my chart up for debate, you may, i would love to hear about it.
cheers to pluto,
bd
I have several projects on the back burner:
1) National wellness centers, I have a business model and plan I have been working on and perfecting 10 years.
2) Children's books, I am working on books, a series of them. Based in my own experiences such as resurrecting bugs from the dead about age 5, being taught by trees and mastering conscious symbology. They are stories of a little girl having journeys between both worlds at the same time.
3) wilderness/medical/survival gear, I have numerous ideas/designs for new products for the market in wilderness medicine, military, based on the lack of products like these and the necessity I have for them. I feel in love with wilderness medicine and survival.
New business projects that have been developing over the last two years.
1) National food coops with one head office and only local organic produce is sold. This would help America with the food crisis.
2) Business consulting/pr/marketing and assistance in self publishing company that only caters to the alternative markets. We have many amazing things coming out of the alternative collective and they are not the type of people who know what to do next and thus their thoughts, ideas and products never make into the public arena.
these are the other projects. i am just trying to give you a sense of who i am when it comes to my birth data and events that have happened since born.
i was born december 18, 1968
in fresno, california
11:45 pm
and yes, i almost died and was told i would have severe brain damage because of the force applied to get me out after 18 hours. typical pluto stuff! i also had a stigmata 3 times during age 4 to 5. after is when i stared healing animals and resurrecting bugs from the dead, no shit! i have never met another person like myself and would love too.